God is Amazing!

Alright...so my heart was struggling a ton this last week. So many lies, so much unbelief, so not trusting... But the Lord our God is amazing. Sunday's sermonc rung so hard in my heart. I do not think I have ever witnessed a sermon where I have been completely dumbfounded, completely! It was as if Pastor Dave had been sitting in my heart and head this last week, seeing and hearing all of what was going on. The sermon was on John 20:19-31 where Jesus showed himself to the disciples and Thomas doubted. What was even crazier is that Dan Hedge had just given his talk that week on the same passage, and so many of the same points rang clear in Pastor Dave's message as well. What the disciples went through when Jesus revealed himself to them is much of what we go through daily. But that He cares SO much for us that he goes to us in our need. He cared that Thomas was in doubt of the resurrection, so He came back to show Thomas. He took the extra time needed to help him believe. Jesus wants to meet us in our disillusionment, and help guide us through it. He wants to help us find the truth and once again stand confident in the hope we have in His name. I can not even begin to explain everything that was shared through the sermon Sunday, but it really rocked what was going on in my heart.

I had really been confused about a lot of things, and I allowed my heart and head believe a lot of lies about myself: that I am not good enough, do not deserve my schoolarship, will never succeed or get it, do not know enough of the Truth, judged by everyone harshly, will never have that relationship that I desire, will never feel loved, just so many lies... The hatred that all those lies brought onto myself was so hurtfull. STUPID are those thoughts, because I have it all in the Lord. He is everything/anything/all that I need. There is nothing more in life that I need to do than live for Him. He is the lover of my soul! Those lies are still trying to pick away a lot of what I know is truth, but God has restrengthened my heart to believe truth. It's an everyday, well more like every minute, battle that I struggle with for sure. But I need to "hold unswerving to the hope [I] profess, for he who promised is faithful." (Hebrews 10:23) There is no doubt Jesus is the son of God and that He saved us from a life eternally seperated from Him by dying on the cross.

So this is my prayer for those who read this. That you would dig deeply for truth and know that the love God has for us is deeper than any depth, wider than any width, and thicker than any thickness. That you would see Him in your steps today and always. And that you would allow for Him to do great things through your life. For He is great, and merciful, and all powerfully the God of you and me. May you experience the love of Christ today, Amen!