and it goes a little something like this...

This past weekend was breathtaking. I am so amazed by what God did in my life and the lives of so many others! The whole weekend was such a refilling experience, being connected with other Christians who all were working on their walk. But Saturday night was really something. At the end of Dave's talk, he opened the mic for people to come up and be able to confess the things the Lord had put on their heart. At first it was silent, not one person was moving towards the stage. Dave was about to stand up again, and bring up the worship band, when Katie stood up and started confessing. What she started spurred more people to come, which continued to build greater and greater. After each person would pour out their hearts, Dave would talk with them a little bit on stage, and then he would ask for others to come pray with the person who had just confessed. It was absolutely incredible to see and feel the fellowship of 200 believers taking in and comforting their brothers and sisters. We eventually split up into women and men groups, where we continued the confessing and praying until late into the night. It was so eye opening to see how many women had been scared and hurt by men in their life, deep cuts. Being able to pray with these women really engraved a deep meaning onto my life. I have always been wondering what God has in store for me in my life, the "future." As I sat there with one of the woman, I just saw how much God was working and how he was using each of us there to protect and build up His children. I really feel like He is calling me to grasp that more, and possible do it as a "job" (bad word for it) one day. There is just so much feeling right now that I don't know what to do with it.

Now being home, it is hard to keep my sponge soaked. The devil certainly is at work here on campus trying to undo everything we learned and felt this weekend. I fear for my friends when I see them so down that my words aren’t a comfort to them. It scares me that we can trip into believing that God isn’t at work in everything we do. It scares me to see my friends in pain, struggling to find meaning in their business. I have hope and faith that the Lord will deliver us from all of this, but when?!?! Is it just that we don’t see His blessings, or that we are being patient??? "’For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the Lord, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.’" Jeremiah 29:11